By Victor Ochieng
On Friday, recording artist Katy Perry launched her new album, Witness. Then come Saturday, in the middle of a live therapy session, the singer broke down as she narrated her Christian background, feeling remorseful and “ashamed” of having had thoughts of committing suicide due to her personal life challenges. In everything, however, she gives all the glory to God for having seen her through it all.
Perry was having a session with Siri Singh from “The Therapist” Viceland series when she spoke about having had challenges reconciling her public celebrity life as Katy Perry and her real person, Katherine Hudson. She revealed that at the onset, she was forced to go through this “crazy microscope,” which made it difficult for her to remain her authentic person.
“I so badly want to be Katheryn Hudson that I don’t even want to look like Katy Perry anymore sometimes — and, like, that is a little bit of why I cut my hair because I really want to be my authentic self,” she explained.
The singer did away with her signature locks and is now donning a short, blond hairstyle.
During the session, Perry also said that she, together with her parents, both traveling gospel ministers, are undergoing the same therapy. She got quite emotional as she talked about how much she was shielded from by her parents because of their strong religious background. She nevertheless said she’s happy to have at least come to know her parents through the therapy.
“I didn’t really hear them and I’m trying to listen for that more and hold a space and have compassion for them and love them in an authentic way because it wasn’t always easy because we have very different viewpoints. Now we agree to disagree in a loving space,” Perry shared.
That’s not all. Perry reflected on how difficult it was for her when she broke with her ex-husband, Russell Brand, and struggled with thoughts of suicide. To ease things up, she channeled her feelings and thoughts into her “By the Grace of God” song in which she acknowledged God’s intervention for her to overcome and be who she was then.
“I feel ashamed that I would have those thoughts, feel that low and that depressed,” she said, adding, “I wrote that song, ‘By the Grace of God’ because I do believe in something much bigger than me and I call that God for me. I get to live this wonderful life and I’ve been given this gift, I know that God has His hand on me, and I know sometimes I go through things and they’re just too intense and I can’t handle them and then He swoops in and He shows me that it’s His grace that brings me through it.”